Thoughts playing hide n seek in my mind, introspecting and interesting. Agitated by the incidents happening around affecting me directly and indirectly. Unstable and unsettled, heart longs to be heard, to be understood, to be consoled. When I try to extrospect all I find is an ugly face harshly looking at me and trying to instruct me to adjust myself and fit into his dimensions. Dimensions of undue expectations and unfair obligations. Sadly I am unable to relate, comprehend or comply. I have difficulty in doing so, always. I go back to introspect mode once again and get even more frustrated and annoyed this time, my emotions give away and I break down as I am weaker this time.

Then that harsh face gains some more rudeness and content seeing me weak. As expected still tries to pull me down. Deeply annoyed I do not try to explain myself. Then I try to list out all those who understood me better and ur name flashes in my memory. Feel happy for a moment. Then try to search for u, but when found u why did I become more depressed? Is it because u had hurt me even badly? A simple heart longing for little love, respect and understanding .. Where did it go wrong? Ahhh, there you are... The heart was honest. I learn honesty is not the best policy when people around you ate dishonest.