Sandy sitting by the window pane on a lonely night, only companions are a coffee mug and random thoughts fueling the feeling of loneliness. usually content and self focused in such nights, but today was different. It could be the after effect of browing too many social networking sites, seeing and liking lovey dovey posts and pictures of her friends which was missing in her life. Not only the pictures, 'love' was missing from her life she thought. after years of courtship, struggle for acceptance and marriage she was anything but happy with her relationship status : dry and rough.
She craved for a heart that could listen to and understand her, care for and respect her for who she is. Well, that is too much to ask for. or may be the basic expectation of a naive girl. whatever. She recalled few crushes: that boy in 3rd standard called Bhudip who had promised her to get a peacock for her, that fair class monitor Surjya with whom she never really interacted but secretly liked, that smartlooking guy Sarthak with whom her friendship ended in just 2 phone calls, one letter and one small meeting. Or that serious goosey-bumpy crush on that grey eyed senior who was actually a dumbo-appearing-smart. Or that colleague who tops the list of crushes who had brought stormy weather in her life. well these crushes keep popping and flashing now and then reminding her what she is missing in life, how love and romance deprieved she is, what had she set out for and where she had landed, can she ever evolve? etc. etc. lingering thoughts, she concludes these 'crushes' were still fine and cool memories, better than being "Crushed" in her marital relationship. Sigh.
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